Day 51 Jedi

Jedis here I am, better late than never! Feel like I'm back to the days of being a new mom or something! Oy! As in being up all night. But reality is my little one was restless. 

So today was Day 51 of my program, and as you know, I'm not wet behind the ears when it comes to home workouts. I've completed a handful and can handle a lot. But lately they have been drudgery. 

This morning I felt stronger. Why? You might ask. Nutrition. Plain and simple. I was back on my game since Monday despite the rest of the household being out of sync, it's true. Whenever my food is sugar-laiden or categories missing, I'm dying in my workouts. 

So as I did Total Body Chisel today, I felt the most challenging were the step down, cross-back moves which as a tall person are funny! With my stepping up on my "bench" (which by the way is literally a piano bench in my home), I almost touch the ceiling. 😂 These moves, I wish I could do in one clean stroke, but I'm struggling at the top, pushing up to the top of the bench. Once I touch back to the floor, I'm ok. I have to stop and pause the DVD player or streaming in my laptop, so I can do the 10 at my own pace, wobbling with a little extra "shove" at the top, to hoist my hip up and get my tush down. I look funny as hell. 

The lunges and flys were no problem. I was actually quite proud of myself to upping my ability to 20 lbs on most moves except for upper body (presses I switched between 15 and 20, not too shabby). I am out of the Performance Line Recharge and my body is really needing that healing overnight. Hoping it arrives shortly, so I'm not so stiff and sore in the morning. 

This whole week has been really rough with my middle daughter being sick. She didn't go to school for 4 days, and I found myself not being able to do my usual 5:00am. My personal development and my professional power hours for coaching work were started much later, which just becomes harder for me. Let me go on record saying "Yuck! Evening workouts stink!" Just no way I'll ever switch. I love being an early riser. Funny how we can change. Looking back I don't know how I did it. 

Cursed Cardio Day

It was almost about 7:00 I think and I still hadn't exercised. As you know that is so not like me. Jedi is usually up and all done with that sort of thing by 6:00am, so to be getting it in that late was so weird for me. My daughter wasn't feeling so great from her eczema - the poor thing has these flare ups . Then I got to thinking : flex your entrepreneurial muscle today . It's your earned right to just keep her home if she's not up to going into pre-K. It'd be one thing if she were in the older grades, but not this little munchkin . I felt really bad for her; and it was so nice, I must admit, to just snuggle under the blankets on the sofa and watch a movie with her. I waited 11 years to be able to do this with one of my girls: not have to send them in to school sick or have to scramble at the last minute to see if a friend or someone could help out, most of the time changing my schedule was not gonna work, or I'd lose the money and could never afford to take the risk. 

I am very grateful that I can at any moment make that choice. Well today I did and it was a reflection on my decision last year to truly focus all my energy on wellness (myself and others), that I made the right choice. The road less traveled can often be lonely. You make others uncomfortable when you suddenly disrupt the norm, everyone begins to question themselves and what 'they' are doing; your decision causes self-reflection in others - like holding a mirror to their own faces, and typically they do NOT like what they see. They want you to just stop all that shit and go back to the status quo, no rocking, no molecule disrupting, haha. But it doesn't work that way, does it? You're not going to compromise your values and your dreams so that others don't have to get uncomfortable. 

Today I discovered through a value conversation with my partner that we actually diverge in our dreams and belief systems. It will be a lonely road for me, as I had hoped my vision would create teamwork , but that is not to be after all. I can accept it but I'm not happy about it. Still I'd chose reality any day of the week over kicking a tire, which is what I seem to be doing lately. 

After finally getting in my workout belfry 8:00pm -- phew I hate exercising at night . I don't know how people can do that! I will definitely avoid this again. The excuse to tend to Regina, my mother's namesake, my last princess was worth it.  Can I still say I cursed out Autumn several times. I think the girls heard me, lol. 

Until tomorrow then ! 

Jedi