Return of the Jedi

Return of the Jedi, haha. I guess this is fitting since I have been an absent blogger since July. I was gone mainly because the summer was spent traveling and moving around so much, first camping then living with friends for August. With my girls' father away in Europe, it was rough dealing with most of the household things that married couples take care of. I guess that should not be an excuse, but I did let it become one.

So here I am Day 1. I am thrilled and scared at the same time of being in a test group and I'll tell ya why. When you hear 'test group' you wanna be like "oh shit' haha. And yes, it entails, not being able to fall off the wagon and make major excuses which as a seasoned fitness person, becomes easier to do. Let's face it, two years into anything, teaching, managing, student-ing, you have the potential to become entrenched. You can get looser, slack a bit, and no one's gonna really call you on it, because you are the leader. Am I right? But I decided I would not disappear for this offer. I am reading this new audiobook (version) of the "universe has your back" and what's good about it, is that it syncs perfectly with this new program Core de Force. The author speaks of 'showing up for your assignment' with LIFE  being in essence, your classroom. The universe is your teacher. When you don't show up, the lesson will continue to present itself until you do. That is so true. I was driving home from Woodstock recently listening to her as my two girls slept, and when she said that, I could really relate. We don't expect miracles. But they are everywhere. Sometimes we get a sign, and at least for me, I have always had little signs. The universe recently presented its lesson to me about love and relationships. I actually believe the lesson I am still deciphering because I don't believe it is as clear cut as one might think upon first getting it/experiencing it. I think I am still figuring it out, but there definitely was a lesson there on my Catskill journey to my roots. And there is more still presenting itself. I just have periods in my life, where I shut down to it. But I always knew I had this other channel, this spiritual empathy I could tap into. At my age, I don't wish to ignore it any longer or fight myself any longer. I want to embrace this ability and use it. So that is what I have been doing.

So I started this morning, all prepped. I decided to go old school, like when I was a newbie client, not a coach, and just prep all my 7 days worth of meals. I will be doing no alcohol, no sweets, just really clean eating all week. And I am excited and totally committed to the new Martial Arts style workout Core de Force. It was a little awkward at first when I started it, because I have no experience, but I watched the tutorial and you know, after 10 minutes, I could do it. And surprisingly I liked it. As in REALLY LIKED IT! I can see myself doing it every day, and not dragging my feet. I guess I wanna fight and get the energy out. I simply always feel better afterwards.

I have a small but intimately linked Test Group of my own, and excited for those clients who decided to do it with me. That makes me feel hopeful that they're have this awakening the way I did. And it's good to have my confidant Heather with me. She's one of my oldest coaches who I mentored and she's kickin' ass. So proud of what she has done with her coaching career and her family. That makes me feel like I did my job to enlighten her life in some small way. I believe that's what we are here for, to touch some lives and make them better - even if just a little. The universe takes notes of all those deeds.

Will do my first workout as soon as they become available on digital unlock..still waiting.

~Jedi