Only 5 days left to go! Wobbled through this morning, but here's how if you're not careful, your mind can play games with you. I could easily focus on the fact I failed the isometric push-ups, when I've done them just fine so many times before. But instead I'm gonna keep in mind how when I started this program I was using what Regina now terms 'the baby weights' - 'her weights' and I've moved on to 15s and 20s. I built a tush. You don't "shape" one, you build it with patience, lifting, and lots of eating 😂. I'd rather wobble here, then find parts of me shaking around.
So much of this 'is' a mind game. When I look back to 2014, challenges that I thought were crazy, don't seem that way anymore . Food that I thought I couldn't have. Moves I thought I couldn't do. People I thought wouldn't talk to me. Relationships that seemed so important at the time. Projects that had these deadlines that I thought were reasonable lol. Mistakes that I thought would cost me dearly. I told myself I'd be somewhere in 1 month, then 3, then 6, then a year. And I've seen that whenever I got there, it was due to what I did. Not bulldozing through life, not crushing people, not burying myself, but just by simply sticking to the little things. If I can get through just 4 minutes more of this test, I can say I survived. If I can survive the embarrassment, I can learn to refine for next time. If I can suffer a little today, maybe give up something that means putting someone else forward, I can get something in return later. I can see the mark I have left. The change for them. It's the same with yourself. Tiny gains become a prideful masterpiece. The cool thing is: time is in your favor.
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